Jangan Salahkan Aku

Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku dapat jadi penilai yang baik. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku sedar bahawa aku hanyalah sekadar makhluk yang sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan Allah. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku dapat kasih sayang yang terbaik untuk diri aku. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku sedar Allah Maha Pemurah dan Penyayang kerana memngingatkan aku bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yang terbaik dan hebat untuk aku dan kehidupan aku pada masa hadapan. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku dapat mengutip pengalaman yang tak semua orang dapat mengalaminya. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang salah supaya aku menjadi orang yang hebat jiwanya. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku sedar bahawa cinta yang terbaik ada bersamanya. Memang Allah sengaja menemukan aku dengan orang yang salah supaya aku lebih mengenali kehidupan yang tak selamanya kekal.

“Bila aku memandang segalanya daripada Allah, yang mencipta segalanya, yang menimpakan ujian, yang menjadikan sakit hatiku, yang membuatkan keinginanku terhalang serta menyusahkan hidupku, pasti akan damailah hatiku kerana masakan Allah sengaja mentakdirkan sesuatu untuk tujuan sia-sia, bukan Allah tidak tahu deritanya hidupku, retaknya hatiku, tapi mungkin itulah yang Dia mahu kerana Dia tahu hati yang sebeginilah yang selalunya lenih lunak dan mudah untuk dekat dan akrab denganNya...”

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Surah Al-Hujurat ayat 13:

"We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other). Verily the most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things). "

YA ALLAH Ya tuhanku yang maha pengasih, Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku, Didunia dan diakhirat, Dengarlah rintihan dari hambamu yang daif ini, Janganlah engkau biarkan aku sendirian, Didunia ini mahupun diakhirat, Menjuruskan aku ke arah kemungkaran dan kemaksiatan, Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman, Agar aku dan dia dapat bersama-sama membina, Kesejahteraan hidup kearah yang kau redhai. Dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah.

YA ALLAH Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan, Didunia dan diakhirat, Dan peliharalah kami dari azab api neraka.

YA ALLAH Kau ketemukanlah aku dengan insan yang boleh Membimbingku, menyayangiku, menggembirakanku, dan ikhlas padaku, Jika diri ini masih daif, Kau berikanlah aku, Ketenangan untuk diri ini kembali padamu, Untuk menjadi lelaki/wanita yang soleh/solehah.

YA ALLAH Seandainya kau telah catatkan, Dia milikku, tercipta untukku, Dekatkanlah dia padaku, Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku, Titipkanlah kemesraan antara kami, Agar kebahagiaan itu abadi.

YA ALLAH Seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari hidup ini, Ketetapan yang sejahtera dan abadi, Maka jodohkanlah kami.

Tetapi YA ALLAH Seandainya engkau telah takdirkan, Dia bukan milikku, Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku, Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku, Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan.

YA ALLAH Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti, Berikanlah aku kekuatan, Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit, Hilang bersama senja yang merah, Agarku sentiasa tenang, Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya.

YA ALLAH yang Tercinta Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirMu, Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan, Adalah yang terbaik untukku, Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui, Segala yang terbaik buat hambaMu ini.

YA ALLAH Yang MAha Mengetahui, Segala sesuatu dilangit dan dibumi, Engkaulah yang melimpahkan rezeki, Buat hambaMu ini, Engkau jualah yang mengatur hidupku dan matiku, Maka aku redha, Atas segala ketetapanMu, Sesungguhnya setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya...

وَمِنْ آيَاتِهِ أَنْ خَلَقَ لَكُم مِّنْ أَنفُسِكُمْ أَزْوَاجًا لِّتَسْكُنُوا إِلَيْهَا وَجَعَلَ بَيْنَكُم مَّوَدَّةً وَرَحْمَةً إِنَّ فِي ذَلِكَ لَآيَاتٍ لِّقَوْمٍ يَتَفَكَّرُونَ

"Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya ialah Dia menciptakan untukmu isteri-isteri dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan dijadikan-Nya di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sesungguhnya pada yangdemikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda bagi kaum yang berfikir."

وَأَنْكِحُوا الْأَيَامَى مِنْكُمْ وَالصَّالِحِينَ مِنْ عِبَادِكُمْ وَإِمَائِكُمْ إِنْ يَكُونُوا فُقَرَاءَ يُغْنِهِمُ اللَّهُ مِنْ فَضْلِهِ وَاللَّهُ وَاسِعٌ عَلِيمٌ

Marry those among you who are single, or the virtuous ones among yourselves, male or female: if they are in poverty, Allah will give them means out of His grace: for Allah encompasseth all, and he knoweth all things.

HATE???

Hubbi, y u think i'm hate u? i just said it but i'm not meaning it. i need u in my life, and i was told it with my father n my mother. they said, if u are serius, dont get me hurt and leave me when we get married cos here more problem like that. i know and i believe u not like them hubbi. if u can see my eyes now, its more hopefully u are my husband one day, its not dream but its do'a. in this world, how much mans i find to give their love to me, but u are most specially. if i find like u here, i leave u for the first week i meet u. but u are my perfect. my eyes only see u are my perfect. Hubbi, if in ur heart still have me, keep it carefully, cos i know we should strong...i love u even what happen to me and u, even anyone touch o disturb our love....cos my love for u is true. BELIEVE IT!!! i'm not lier...i'm not shit...i just a woman who love si-ahmed.

Here I was alone
contemplate the quiet days
I'm without you
Still without you
When tomorrow comes again
I try to face all these
Even without you, without you even
When I got the glowing stars
The sun is quiet with me here
I stared to laugh cry
I stand in this place
I Hear Voices
What people say my idol
I am here waiting
still hoping in your heart
I Hear Voices
Is my heart always
I am here waiting
still hoping in your heart
If I'm still here
I skip all that happened
I'm waiting, I'm waiting...

Realize the behavior of your loved one
I'm really very excruciating
Though I give you what you want
But you do not understand me
Heart pain
With all the ways you
If you continue this way
Later I can go
I ask Love
Me in your life
And you do not rough
Hear sweethearts
I ask Undercover
We Do not fights again
Facing all the cold heart
Hear sweethearts

why did you go, why did you go
at the moment I started loving you
wish you were my lover
but you go away from my life
more alone, more alone
when you left me to go
never had a decorating my day
when I awoke from my sleep
I want you to come and meet me
I'll tell you I loved you
I want you to come and meet me
I'll tell you I really love
more alone, more alone
when you left me to go
never had a decorating my day
when I awoke from my sleep
I hope you understand this feeling right
sorry I was swept up to the beauty of love
so sorry I'm not able to return to you
sorry I was swept up to the beauty of love

Dont Shy!!!

ào, am goin to tell you my story it happens to me when i finished with the university,
so, when i finished with the university and get my LIcence degree, me and all my friends start to look for a job, we wrote many letters of requesting a job, but me, i was too shy,, too shy than u imagin, but the other friends get a job so queckly!
so:
after that, Hachmi forced me to put courage and he told me that "you are shy coz u r lack of sth, you need sth inside you" i was so amaizing and i asked him "what is it??"
you know what he answered??!!!!
he answer was the key for everything.he said

"what u need is the FACE TO FACE."
i will explain it to hubbi.
face to face is when u give the letter to the boss and u r only u and him inside his office.
so the words that u will use in this case not the same words that u use it with ur friends, no problem if u show him that u r scrambling or that u r afraid face to face cos thius boss has got experience and he knw that its ur first time u will work but what he need you to show him is your desire that you want that work, you desire that you want to work whatever the kinfd of the work was, because at the first conversation (and of corse he knw what he is doing and what he will get by his question from your answer), he will tell you words that makes you afraid from that job, he will tell you that its great risponsability and its too hard from ...and so on, he will ask you these question in purpose cos he want to knw if u r strong, but never show him that u r afraid from the job, say aways to him "yes i will do, yes i will acheive that job, yes..,yes.. yes,," so that, he will knw that u have got the desire for the work and this all what all Bosses need in the worker.
dont afraid, cos he knw that its your first work life, so no problem if you made mistakes in that job.
hubbi, wallahi, when i started working with the big recently society here in algerai i was so afraid, cos i asked my self "waaaaaaw, how can be interprete in the most biggest society in algeria!!! , but after that huhuhuhuhuh hahahahahahaha , i became the number one who the chinies need in the work, cos i descovred that i can face any problem,,, u knw y!!! COS I GET RID OG THE SHY, I LED DOWN THE SHY AND STARTED THINK AS A MAN OF EXPERIENCE....
other thing hubbi,,,, think y ur brother give you his work to do it!!??
i will give you the answer tomorrow.

Together again, again n again until death

dear,
i didnt meant to fight with you, we were just descusion.
if you knw what i mean by that descusion u will tell me that u r sorry for what u said to me.
i will explain y:
1- if we descuss friends problem and know about their problems,,,, we will learn more how to run this love betwen us,
coz:
if we reash the point of agreement that all secrets die between us, we will be good lovers and strong lovers that never seperate.
learning about others problems, mean learn from the mistakes of the other, and later u will never fall in such mistakes coz u already learned about it.
whatever this descusion hurted u cos i knw that they r ur friends but u have to resist, to fight that hurt, so that later u will be strong when u see that ur friends is doing sth bad.

2-if you keep defending and suporting ur friends infront of my question, u will never gain my love, u will make me feel that u still dont trust me, and so that may be later, i will start for someone else who i can make him trust me.
this is true hubbi wallahi, what am saying is true.

3-the successful parents are those who share communication, a communication that has got secrets.... how that?!
i will explain:
when we were talking in ym u said to me (dont send them any message)...... hope that u will not say this to ur future husband.
coz
its very dangerous, he will think that u have some of secrets with them and u r hiding sth from him and u r suporting ur friends and u forget that he is ur husband.

no matter if we made mistakes but, i hope u will learn more with me and u let me finish my idea then djuge.
i still love u ya bint motalib

 

ya, sure.. i will explain anything what u want hubbi. cos i'm really love u. nothing special for them, we are same school in 9 years, but never have any special relation, wallahi i said, even between syazana n syahidah. here, the two boys get a course islamic study, but me, syazana n syahidah different course. the two boys will finish their study this sem, its mean they r in last sem cos their course just for 3 years. but, this sem, we never find each other cos they are so busy with their thesis. dont worry hubbi, they just our friends and insyaAllah if u here, when they invite me to their wedding day, i will go with u also, and u will know them more. kind of them to me, syazana and syahidah they care if we have anypblm here if we tell them cos u know, woman need man help for sth else we cant do it. thanks hubbi, i know u care with who i'm friends, who have relation with me, ask me if u want to know anything, but dont ask me if u judge before ask cos its danger to our relation. if we r not strong, we will separate. but alhamdulillah, until now, we still need each other. ok, i want to study now, please doa' to me can answer any my lecturer question tmorow. What desire ravages my heart,Shall I tell u tonight?Not gold, not diamonds,For they are no use to me, Not mansions, not cars, For they are no more than show-pieces,Give me a heart if u will, take my heart if u will, Take, take all I have, Have a care. I will desert u, Woe betide, if to u i'm lie, I will desert u, But the braves will carry their brides away. My beloved, everyone say to u I lost my heart. But let me tell u, u’ve won my heart, The sight of your love locks flying in the air. Hubbi will u set the heart of maidens on fire?. The sight of such beauties. Lots of love to u...

Compairative Religion

ok, about the subject that u told me about is extreamly dangerous, y?.
you or me or anyone else, i mean students are not perfect enought to put the right comparison, i said the right coparison.
so, the better way to study this is to let this things for IMAM, because he get more knowledge about that. but:
what i hear from Imam is:
its true that Bible is the words of Allah but it changed through the time, christian chage it, y?
because at that time there was more interests, the leader started to chaged the bible as their needs, i mean:
leaders or kings need sth from his people, people at that time were not wise, not educated, people at that time were strongly beleive in what the religions man said to them, if the religion man said to them that this is haram sothey do beleive without asking y.
so what happend?, at that time, kings started to force the religion men to autorise sth haram to be halal, so:
the kings did that because they have interest in that sth, they need that sth of halal to became haram or they will loose.
example, at that time, the clergy man (church man) was force by the kings to create what we call (forgiveness tickets), they ask people to buy these tickets because if they dont buy it, Allah will not forgive them, and since people at that time were still stupid, they buy it, and after this the kings gain lot of money.
so, whats happened then??!!!
some of the strong clergy men and the leaders of the church were so strong and not afraid from the kings, whats happen?, they started said to people that what the kings were doing is fals, i mean not true. kings started to punished the men of church and then burn all the bibles inorder not to read it by people.
at that time, only little people were keeping the bible but with secret coz if the kings hear about them he will kill them, so what happen after that? ;
those little people started to leave there places and there countries, because other persons know about there secrets that they still keep the original bible and they will tell the kings, so
those people who were holding the original bible travel to far places but they found that other people with defferent languages want to know about the bible, so they translated but since the translation was so bad,,,, words change and it lost its meaning.
so this is the history and not all the history of how the bible change, i dont want to give u all the history cos i dont want u to be confuse with ur true religion.
so as conclution:
now in our days Imam call the bible (bible of lot of books), we find bible1 / bible 2/ bible 3/ bible 4...and so one, and no one know how is the true bible but;
Quran is one book, it didnt change through time, but what chage is only Writens hand قراءات
this arabic word that i gave it to you, if you succeed to translate to maly u will understand the top comparative between quran and bible.
quran has got WRITENS HAND ( قراءات)
but bible has got i dont what to say!
example: in quran we find SOURAT AL HAMDO, this verses did change through the time , but what chaged in it is only قراءات
but, bible if u read the first page of it, u will find PAROLE, in Bible2 u will find defferent PAROLE in the same first page and so on.
i hope u understand this.
ALLAHO WALIYO AL TAWFIK